driving miss crazy

I'm heading out for a driving lesson this morning.  I can drive, have done for a long time, but failed my US road test in June. To say I was devastated doesn't say enough.  Worse was I could feel how disappointed my instructor was with me because he knows as well as I do that I should have passed! Argh! Nerves got the better of me on the day, as they do for lots of people, doesn't help that feeling of failure though. I have my next road test in just over a week and I am terrified! Not of the driving, or the maneuvers which are just checking off boxes as you go, signal, mirrors, blindspot, etc.. I am terrified of failing again.  I get a knot in my stomach thinking about it. So off I go for a lesson and I hope to do a couple more before the road test - just to get some more experience so maybe I won't be as terrified.  Time will tell!

saga continues

It really feels like I started this blog a lifetime ago. So many upsets and setbacks have happened over the past 8 months I can't believe it hasn't been longer. As of now, we are still in our city house, and still waiting to move into the house we made an offer on. The problem now is with the buyers of this house. They still have not got their mortgage signed off on. We have been ready to go for the past 3 weeks. And believe me, the frustration and sadness of the state of our lives just now is overwhelming. We are living out of boxes, which are piled in every room. The children didn't start school in September on the weekly promises from the agents that it would only be a few more days.. a few more days. So now they are behind by a month, and will be starting Monday in a local public school, seen as their private one wouldn't take them back for such a short time. But really who knows if it will be a short time. Our lawyer is today issuing a time is of the essence giving our buyers 2 weeks to get their act together or face being in default. Which is the same time we now have, or face losing our mountain house. Selling a house is really in my opinion more stressful than divorce, or anything else for that matter. Especially when there are children involved, I hate the fact their little lives have been put on hold for the whole summer, now the fall, going into winter. Hoping for some news, some good news in the next few days, or I may just pack myself in a box, and come out when this is all done.