Every time a child says, "I don't believe in fairies," there is a fairy somewhere that falls down dead.
James Matthew Barrie, Peter Pan

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

it's never an easy road

Each pregnancy for me has brought with it some challenges, be it preterm labor or dealing with a tremendous amount of back pain.  This one is proving to be no exception. I caught Fifth Disease from my daughter, which apparently most people have had by adulthood, not I.  Also it has no real harmful effects for children or adults - unless - of course - they are pregnant! So now I have to have regular ultrasounds to make sure the baby is not becoming anemic which could then cause heart failure. I'm heading into my 16th week - so far all is good, crossing fingers that it stays that way.

I've been so busy with the house that I haven't had time to think about it - which is probably a blessing, seen as I am the worlds worst person for patience and waiting for news.  I'm currently waiting for an appointment with a specialist at the local hospital who will then decide how regular the scans need to be, so of course I'm on pins waiting for that phone call.  Also it's been 3 weeks since my last scan, so I'm nervous to go in when the call comes - just in case something has now gone wrong.  The chances are very small - after the initial threat of miscarriage which I think is 10% has passed - it's now around 5% that have issues.  So 1 in 20 - which of course sounds much worse than 5%! I can't really start planning for the baby - preparing the little nursery off our bedroom, buying things I like as I see them, until after the 25th week - which as far as I can tell is when if you've had no problems arise the likelihood is slim to none of any further down the line.  But I am knitting.  The first cardigan I attempted went very wrong and somehow I knitted the sleeve backwards - don't ask! Now I'm attempting a new pattern.  There's nothing like a brand new baby in a hand knit goodie.  So I'm focusing on that. And nothing else.

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